In Truth

So i was sitting here, thinking of what i could possibly write, and as i pondered. i got thoughts of all my past "relationships" or what have you's. and i decided why not write on about what was miss placed, or even what my thoughts are now looking back on them.

So Ive realized that the guys Ive liked/loved where "just not that into me" lol i guess with the help of the book I'm reading I now have realized that. So now I know not to waste my time trying to be civil with them. And then I started to think of my teacher and what he said, its stuck in my head.

When I say what do you look for in a Girl/Boy friend? You probably think someone that's Honest, Trustworthy, Loyal, Hot, Cute, Smart, Has Money, right? well what about this, Do you see them in your future? Could you see yourself having a family with them? Do you see yourself living with them? Do you see yourself being married to them? Becoming part of the family? Because after all having a Boy/Girl Friend is just another way to test drive it all. Its like going to buy/lease a car. You try it out if you like it you get it, if you love it you buy it.

Okay maybe that was not a good analogy but the thought crossed your mind and you where thinking that is sooo true... So now that Ive thought about this, its going to make the hard, impossible, because to be honest who looks for a soul mate now and days? Who believes in courtship? I bet more then half the world doesn't even know the meaning of courtship, I bet people don't even remember whats its like to actually have a date and get to know someone, and of course there are those very few that do.

Maybe there is that Mr/Miss right out there and the whole looking is part of the whole experience of finding the "love of your life" that is why its not easy, or not supposed to be at least. So now I look at this whole Relationship thing in a different light, for every one that you waste your time on will make you apprecitate the one that will be forever, But how do you find "the one" when the world is so BIG???