Out of place

so my brother is here visiting, from Ohio. and I'm happy hes here cuz i hardly see him! (Thats Him in the pic!) so my mom decided to cook dinner today, i remember when i was younger and the family would come over or we would have a party she would cook these great big Italian meals that we would have a weeks worth of left overs.

Any way we where younger when she use to cook as we got older we would start to cook for ourselves as we where in school and everyone worked. and now she cooked today, i'm not saying its a bad thing, it was just weird. as i was sitting there with the roast, potatoes, and carets in front of me and my niece to my right my parents both in front of me and my brother to my left, i felt out of place. like as if i was in some movie. it was weird and funny at the same time. But i sat there and just felt like i didn't belong there.

I didn't understand it, it seemed like something great that we where all sitting there as a family but then some how i just felt like i didn't belong like i should'nt be apart of this family. i felt abstract and out of place. It was great for that brief moment we all got to be a family again. but it was just so weird in my mind.

i sat there and ate my food fast and then left. i think that something is wrong with e and i don't know what it is. and maybe I'm just making more of what it is but. IDK, Ive always been weird and out of place when it comes to my family i guess.

BB42/Silv